Confused. Really confused. It is not the first time i faced the same situation, but it is really the very first time i dunno how to manage. In the past, the chances are not there and i just anyhow trying. So it is ok for me even i din succeed. But now seems i am the one making everything from good to bad to worse. Still got chance? I dunno, really dunno.

Whatever, still praying. Start fasting for two things. Really hope and pray that i can have both. Although honestly i dun have enough faith on both things, human's end is God's start. Dare not say proclaim, but pray that can have good results on both things. It will really become a transition point of my life, whichever comes true.

Pray that can have both. They are both so important to me.